I HAVENT BEEN ON THIS IN FOREVER

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Personal Project

lately my life as been, not so great to say the least. and i have become a new found follower of karma. so i have decided to take the idea of my name is earl, and do it in real life. for those of you who dont know what my name is earl is, here is a summary. this guy used to do a bunch of bad things and his life sucked and he almost died, while in the hospital he made of list of all the bad things he has done and all the people he has hurt and he goes down one by one and rights the wrong by apologizing and doing a favor to make up for what he had done in the past. so that is what i have done i have/ in the process of making a list and im going to do exactly what he did and im going to see how it goes. so thats my update for now. i have already done 2 things and i already feel better about myself.

id just like you to know

that you were a waste of my life that im not waiting for you anymore, your a heartless bitch and currently i couldnt give a fuck about you. this always fucking happens..

hello people who probably dont read my stuff, baha :)

i just feel like being dumb and just ranting on about something so here it goes. first off, my friends (thats you guys for those of you who are of the slow nature) ;) you guys rock lke mos def. lets name a few. ANTHONY, why herro there my friend. im sure i annoy you all the time because i always ask you to chill but you really are like a brother to me. remember that time your mom said i should adopt you, if not i do :) lol and for those of you who dont know we have beaten both left 4 deads and lived to tell the tale haha im so lame.. next. JEFFFFFFFFEEEEEEE T. a.k.a das trumpet moose oh man some good times we have had, like taco bell when they screwed our order up and we left from tylers house all made and ready to wreck some shop, that was grrrrreeat or when we rented that army game and we wanted to kill ourselves after we played it ha… CAITLEN MMMMMMMMM. (sorry if i spelled your name wrong you know im stupid) oh boy, last year. IMMA BITCH SLAP YOU rofl great times or when we jacked around during practice or any band event because we do what we want :)

ahhh im going to stop so sorry if i didnt mention you :/ but all of you make me feel happeh very very happeh, oh and this is my first post that isent negative :)

dueces suckas

Oh man.

I’m tired of being down. I need to start doing more stuff fosho, tonight kinda blew but atleast I got to chill with my sister :)

I hope this finds its way to you

how come everytime i see a picture of you i feel dead inside? just one look at you makes me feel empty. you have torn a hole in my heart that cannot be put back together, you were everything to me and i hate myself for not getting over it but i cant seem to let go. i see how happy you are and i cant help but get that feeling that im supposed to be that person whose hand your holding and that voice that calms you when you have had a terrible day. that voice you fall asleep and waking up to. dont get me wrong im angry with what happened but im happy that your happy. i miss you and i hope you doing ok. i care about you so much and i know you despise me but oh well. i just hope if you ever need anything you call me. ill be there for you even in your worst moments. i feel so lame, i just miss you so much. and things arent going that great for me right now and i really need you but your not there. i dont know what to do. if i could talk to you one more time i would just tell you that im sorry things happened the way they did and i love you so much. you are beautiful and you have the most amazing personality. i lied and told people i was ok when it happend that it was all good, but you know what it really isent “all good” you and me were perfect together and i was so happy. i guess im not really mad at you more at myself that im such a big fuckup that i lost a girl like you. you are one in a million. i just wish i could go back in time and fix all this. i want you to be happy but with me. you understand me, and im trying to fix myslef because i know im not perfect. i just wish that you could see me and how im changing. but you wont and you never will. im going to try to move on without you in my life but it sucks just thinking about it. between you and me i try to be happy but you tear at my heart and play with my head all day everyday. im sorry for making you unhappy and wasting your life, but just to let you know you didnt waste mine. thats all i have to say.

im getting it all out.

listen here you little asshole, some friend you are. backstab me, take my girlfriend, and then ask for forgiveness, fuck you. you know what i always stood by you, no matter what. when everyone hated you, i was there. when girls didnt talk to you, i was there. when all your friends treated you like shit, i was there. i was finally happy. i was finally fucking happy for once. and you came along and fucked it all up. YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HER, you dont. i waited a year for that one moment. my one chance. you waited a week. you took what was mine and gave it to yourself. some bestfriend you are, you know what i hope she cheats on you or gets pregnant and fucks you over man. you really deserve it. i hope that you guys have the worst relationship in the history of ever you fucker. and you know what i hope you burn in hell. i really hope you do. and i find it amazing how all you and your little whore do is talk shit about me. LIKE I DID ANYTHING WRONG. YOU stole her from ME, so dont even pull that shit. i see why everyone hated you now. and i cant believe i that i got so close to you and and you just fucked me over. THANK YOU SO MUCH. but you know what i dont need you, i dont need your pity shit and i dont want you in my life. thanks for the memories even though they dont mean shit. oh and by the way, YOUR NOT A FUCKING MARINE. so stop telling people that because it isent fucking true. you really didnt do shit. thanks for backstabbing me, and making my life hell. but you know what man? KARMA IS A BITCH and its going to come back on you man. and i can only pray that ill be there to see you suffer. so fuck you and your little whore. oh one more thing i think its amazing you guys love eachother after ONE WEEK. its so cute man. great couple you guys are. thanks for everything.

(sorry for those who are reading this. i kept it inside for way to long, and its no onw who goes to vista, because i love all of you)

ugh.

im going to start reading now.

lulz

so me and anthony were prank calling fastfood places and stores and whatnot when we came upon a mcdonalds that had sticks in their asses and totally ruined our fun. as i pretended to be a aisan man wondering how much it would cost for my random food items and milkshakes this dick comes on the phone and says “if your going to prank call at least block your number or im going to have to report you to the police” (i never block my number when i prank call because i know they wont answer) so i was bummed and i think anthony was to but oh well i made some ladies laugh at walgreens when i called about acne cream and had a 30 minute conversation with them ( oh yeah by the way their sevice via the phone sucks) but overall me and anthony learned nothing through this proccess  and we just had some laughs, he sucks at prank calls.. lulz he would get on and be like herro….. hehehe…. herro… hehehehehehehehe, so i had to save him by ripping the phone out of his little hands and covering for him. but thats ok cause anthony knows how to throw it down o almost anything but prank calls. band camp tomorow. joy to us all…